Pressure

I love how I put so much pressure on myself to succeed at everything I do and even things that don't really matter. I doubt myself on occassion when things don't go my way of it I come up against a difficult challenge. I wonder if I can do it will I succeed do I have the willpower to make it happen. Why do I do this to myself time and time again, even on things that I can't control. Those are always the best something completely out of my control can have me worrying about it even if I can't affect the outcome. Wow I need to relax at times, I think that is why I workout so much to clear my head of all the nonsense that can get compounded throughout a normal day. Geez some of the smallest things can effect my day. At times I need to relax and take a step back and analyze the situation before getting all worked up over nothing. I do this especially when it comes to officiating I wonder if I will do a good job make the right calls. All leading up to the day and time of when I have to officiate. I have been officiating for 5 going on 6 years why do I constantly degrade my skills and ability to call a fair game. Others trust and like working with me since I call what needs to be called let go what doesn't effect the play or the flow of the game. I need to just relax and quit working myself up over absolutely nothing. I also am doing this with bartending now also wondering will I be able to make the drinks that I am asked to. Perform up to the level that I am suppose to be performing to. Hoping I can remember the ingredients in a drink. When some of this comes second nature with the basic drinks that every bartender knows how to make. Always wanting to do my best at anything I do is a reward and a curse in it's on outright way. Striving for perfection in everything, not settling for the mediocre lifestyle wanting the bigger and better. Not stopping and until I reach it but will I know when I am there. Will all this hard work and pressure pay off in the end, I sure hope so. Only time will tell.Words to live by relax and be confident you can do anything you set your mind and body out to do if you believe in yourself and your given talents.