Mini Vacay & New Toys

I have gotten some fun new tech toys to play around with during my little Christmas break. Raspberry Pi, Desktop computer, security cameras. Fort Knox security in effect. Planning stage is almost over but there is still more to do. This is only the beginning I am on mission, where will it stop there is no telling but I'm On One for Sure now. Already a suspicious of people's intentions now it is worse on a level never known until now. It's on and popping. There is more to come just wait and see.

Go Hard

I think I am getting to the point where I may be over-extending myself. Seems like I'm always tired but always on the go looking for some good downtime to enjoy myself and catch up on rest. Some many things to do not enough time. I keep going for those who can't and came before me. I know I am blessed and that it of people have helped me get to where I am and I can't let them or myself down. So I keep going no matter what. Constantly evolving to become a better person role model, etc.

Lesson Learned

Lesson learned there are different types of in shape. While I'm in good guys shape and officiating shape I was not quite up to basketball shape. All the pivots slides my legs are killing me. I mean damn, first organized ball play n a couple years is rough but ima get it, it's comin back to me just took a sec but I got it. Cuz I Got Game

Security Sense

There is something about gettin a security system installed that gives you a sense of safety. Not exactly sure what it is but it does. Just a little bit of comfort, especially for me living alone being a single female. Who often works long hours coming home to a unsecured home. Became a bit troublesome here lately after my home being burgularized while I was out at work. I have a little more of a sense of safety and ensuring of my safety in my own home. Not having the urge to continue to keep going home  on my lunch. But there is still something that is a little unsettling I am know once I get my security cameras and install them I will have a little more sense of safeness because I will be able to view my home while away and see what is going on throughout the day while I am away. Doing what I need to do to become the person I want to be. I am self sufficient and continuing to grow as a person and becoming more independent as time goes on. I will do it for myself and learn how to if I do not know how to do it currently.

Niceness

The times of me being overly nice is coming to an end. Putting my needs and wants on the back burner for others is over. Time to think of myself first from now on. If I don't want to I'm not if I have the option in my personal life. In need of sum desperate me time.

Unreal

Still trying to put the pieces back together after the events that unfolded Friday. Just feels so wrong don't know how to feel about the situation, I'm mad, frustrated, annoyed, irritated, confused. Just left wondering why and what they decided to take and nothing more. Now making some of my home renovations happen now instead of as I had planned with spacing them out. A sense of urgency is now here trying to get everything in line so I can get my belongs back and in essence start over and get back to my normal life.

Work Work Work

You would think leaving work I would be done with work for the day. But I guess not work then some more work. Websites and graphic editing fun time had by all. I jus go hard 24-7 365. My motto is work hard work hard and maybe play hard but not really happen to often.

Crazy Day

Should have known today was going to be a good one. Forgot deodorant then get to work and get a call saying i think I killed the projector. So happens the lamp died, the search is on had to find new bulb which was a trip itself then. Ladder screwdriver removing projector after figuring out how to remove it to replace lamp oh what fun. Fun fun there goes my plan for the day oh we'll better luck tomorrow I hope.

Nonsense Talking

So glad that I am done with my basketball association meetings for the year. So much nonsense talking no purpose answering own question while continuing to talk. Oh how pointless and a total waste of time. Don't really learn anything just sit there and let my mind wander of into space.

Nonsense Talking

Officials association meetings are a bunch of nonsense talking. This is where old white guys go to hear themselves talk and answer their own questions. There is no right answer everyone has different point of views and perspectives of a situation so we have to agree to disagree and move on. This is spiraling into a bottomless pit of nothing and nonsense

Never Ending

I live in a world of never ending projects. The majority of the projects that I am working on for work have became the projects that never end. Alwayz having to tweak something, add this delete tthat move this here change this change that. Is there a light at the end of the tunnel I am not sure if it is I definetly don't see it. Guess this will just go in the pile of ongoing projects since in IT nothing is really ever finished it can always be tweaked changes made updates continue to come in on how to make the application better. I think I have a revolving door of projects they remain finished for a few seconds and then I need this added what about adding this type of detail or function. The joy of computer programming and application design and implementation.

Halloween

Today is Halloween the day where we allow our children to dress up and go ask strangers candy. Go door to door panhandling dressed as anything your heart desires. Gotta love it.

Rough Day

Wow what a day it has been full of emotion sadness and joy. Didnt think i would break down like that. Especially since I keep everything bottled up and to myself. Just all came out at once and couldn't stop it. So overwhelmed with everything. Since this is the first time a funeral has felt real and hit home. Especially remembering how much time I spent over there as a kid and all the drives to the grocery store, rides home from church. So much

Time Is Short

Time is short never know when your time will come. Cherish the moments in your life the people and the events. Just never know wen your time is here the memories will last forever and some days will be tough but will make it through. You just never know so cherish the moments and people that are here now before its too late.

Too Much

At times I think I am too much of a catch for men. I can do and have done so many things for myself making it seem as I don't need them in their eyes. I don't make em feel that way I don't boast and make them feel like they ain't shit if they don't have what I have I was just very fortunate lucky and blessed with how things in my life have unfolded. I work hard for what I have and I am proud of what I have achieved over the years. I have come to far to look back now. Can't stop won't stop.

Interesting Couple

The groom is a wild one the bride not so much more timid it appears. But they do say opposites attract this is proof. The highlight of my night o would say is when thx groom ran and jumped on the brides back and started fist pumping. Party Rocking In The House Tonight. Interesting crowd especially the young ones who thought they would b able to drink. But no ID to prove your age no service sorry about your luck. Just since we aren't a legitimate bar doesn't mean we don't card for liquor. To receive liquor you must be 21 no excuses poor little tinnie boppers.

TV Shows

I have realized I watch way more older television shows that have came back on than I do current shows. They jus lack something and reality that isn't real. Too much fitting and nonsense that sets us back centuries at a time.

Still Can't Believe

It still feels unreal like it has never happened. The feeling that something is missing around the office is present amongst us. Just doesn't feel right yet all the reminiescing of our memories of Denny. Thinking of the nicknames, greetings and just what a wonderful person that he truly was and how grateful I am to have met him and got to know him over the past 4 years with my employment at KMI. Just a fun energetic go getter of a person. He will truly be missed by all.

WTF

Creeped Out is the best way to describe how I felt last night while bartending when another black person showed up at the reception. To as I like to say set us back a couple hundred years. I think I found the link he wuz the drug dealer. Why would u say u r Fun Size we will make beautiful kids damn u sexy

The Paper Clip

The best multipurpose tool to be created. It has so many functions and all you have to do is bend or unbend it in a certain direction. And tada universal use for so many purposes IT in particular, open crappy CD/DVD drive loosen a screw when a screwdriver isn't in site. So useful the possibilities are endless. They can even help with boredom when you have enough of them.

High Class Affair

I have been to the polar opposites of the spectrum. The overly black to the white trash affair. The Lockland bash of the year. Such a classy affair the unknown the non-knowing what is about to happen. Baseball caps, gold teeth ghetto fabulous and guess what they are White. Gotta love it, I just can't get enough. The music is the most shocking I would say not knowing what is going to be played and tryin to figure out if I can understand the reasoning. Not the Down The Way and they can actually do the dance. Walk It Out, Booty Call, The Jerk, Not the Wobble. Ludacris Never would have thought. F'd up the Cha Cha slide. Gotta Luv Lockland's best. Now let's Walk It Out, Soulja Boy

Fad Diets

It is always interesting to hear people discuss fad diets when they are trying to lose weight. Not realizing that weight loss is a lifestyle change. I consider myself a rather healthy fit person and understand that exercise and nutrition goes together. You can lose weight quick but the long lasting effects will not last since you will still live the way you do and eat what you want and complain until you find the next big thing. Nothing comes easy it takes hard work, determination, and perseverance to achieve life lasting weight loss and physical fitness goals. I just don't understand nothing worth having comes easy when dealing with your health. Do they think about the long lasting health effects that this can be doing for their health and overall well being. I don't get it this constant dieting and fasting does more harm than good in my eyes. In moderation is what is known by those who have success in the weight loss and healthy physically fit living lifestyle not fad. You can not continue to eat what you want and exercise, you can not out exercise bad dieting habits. Healthy eating is the way to go use moderation in all things in life and you will see a change. Remember it doesn't happen overnight but with time and continued effort. The battle continues and it becomes a way of life and you realize that you can do without such things that you thought you so depended on before.

Black Reception

Well this is a change of scenery all black reception a couple things r for sure, good music plenty of dancing and the complaining about the type of liquor we have. Y'all ain't got no hennessy, remy, no crown no cognac at all, y'all must nit have known what type of party this was gon be. The outfits vary overly skanky, overly matching red hat, pants, shirt and of course the gold teeth. All the looks from the girls of the flirty gentlemen.  From appropriate to trashy some must not have known or they r just prepared for the after party. Hood classic, ghetto fabulous. Too short stripper outfits hooker heels the well all there. Cat daddy. Its sum hoes in the house If you see em point em out,  this is the theme song of the evening. moral of the night you can turn a (stripper) hoe to a housewife.

Wedding Reception Woes

The one thing that is a constant is the same songs played bad dancing and the overly drunk. Also white people will fuck up a song that has a dance with it. Let's see the electric slide, cupid shuffle, change change slide, dougie, wobble, stanky leg. But they always want to hear the songs and flock to the dance floor. The torture on my eyes the horror. We need to have a dance practice before the reception to ensure the dance goes well, also so the DJ doesn't stop the music and make everyone face the DJ table or have to tell the partiers which way and how to do said dance. It is quite amusing I must say. They can however do the jerk. I have named these dances "The Drunken White Stupper". It does however offer an funny evening and enjoyment of my life in whatever way I would get it.

Over Stretched

I think I need to cutback feeling tired all the time. Time to cutback and do e sum r&r. I feel a couple not leaving the house days in the future. For my own well-being and mental stability

Randomness

Some more random thoughts, could just be me but I thought the truck that is n front of the oversize vehicles are suppose to be right in front of them and nota good 2-3 miles ahead of them where u can just see the flashing lights. Okay just a random Friday thought.

Work Fun

The fun times just keep on rolling. Somehow my job description includes crawling around cubes fishing Ethernet and phone cables. Oh the joy oh the fun. Dirty clothes disgusting floor I feel so dirty and nasty. Unrecognizable black stuff all over my hands what is it do I really wanna know, I think not. I'll pass and just continuously sanitize my hands making them overly dry but at least clean. Guess I didn't see that in the fine print, well job scopes constantly change and mine definitely has. Until next time we'll c wut comes up next part electrician part PC hardware specialist part fit in tiny spaces. I have many titles I do many jobs.

Broken Computer

How ironic the IT person computer is broken, and I can't complain to anybody since it is my problem in more ways than one. I was actually working on stuff too but now my attention has been diverted to other tasks now that don't include working on my machine. Especially since the built in ethernet adapter is the issue. No web surfing for this kid well I have a work around desktop wireless adapter from my home computer that I do not use. Well at least to I make it to Microcenter here in the next couple days which isn't looking promising in the next 24 hours. I think a complaint department is necessary for these issues I will be the first one to start it and deliver it to myself. What should I name this department how should I address myself with such a complaint that will obviously go uncared for since I have to fix it no matter how I look at the issue. What an oxymoron IT person broken computer issue. Hey it happens but no one cares outside of the person who problem it is and with it being me and since I'm the person that fixes computers NO ONE CARES.

Interesting Reception

Good reception nobody dancing the wedding party has disappeared oh wait we know were they are on the party bus they have. Nobody dancing except for some teenie boppers. After the first dance, father daughter, monther son dance they have gone missing only to be located in the party bus they have all night. Alcohol, weed, live music and children I don't want to be one to judge but their is something wrong with this picture I must say. The teenage girls are picking the music oh how I love their selections Oh no not the Macarana, I haven't heard this in years and of course I hear it tonight. There is something definetly wrong with smoking weed on a party bus with babies on board though C'MON MAN. The munchies have set in for sure who really wants 4 pieces of wedding cake no matter how good it is. Alcohol and sweets don't mix so well. Somebody is definetly going to be sick in a few. The drunken stagger is apparent with the blood shot eyes. They are definetly having a good time.

No Understand

Loud music , thick accents rude people. I am sorry that one I can't hear you or understand what you are saying. The music is loud and your accents is really thick. Damn Korean wedding reception. They do like their coke and heineken and don't forget the corona with a lime. Good times didn't understand a damn word that was being sung by the live bad all nite or what was being said in general. Sum leave good tips others not so much. a few secretive tips. Some are more americanized than others but that is to be expected. The younger ones of course are more americanized than the elders of the race. They like to dance I will give them that they have a good time and enjoy themselves out and about from what I have seen. Live music and all. But it looks like the same damn dance moves to every song. I have named it the Korean 2-Step. No matter what the song sounds like I see the same dance moves just faster or slower but they are the same moves no matter what. A new dance has been discovered "The Korean Two Step"

New Dance

Last night while working a reception I witnessed what I am now calling "The Korean Two Step. Same dance moves for every song that the live band played and the singers sang. Only wish I could understand what was being sang. The music was good but don't knw bout the words since I don't speak Korean. Interesting night by far especially once dinner was over and the elders left, that is when the younger crowd got the party started. They didnt stop til the music ended and the night was over. The free beer kicking in then the mixed drinks long islands and vodka cranberry or vodka sprite. They like to party and what looked like a chugging game. Along with taking Korean kingpin pictures all that was missing was the background of supped upnracibg cars, Acura civic altima my car was by far the less supper up integra in the parking lot. Think it is time for a movie marathon of fast & furious

Relaxing

What a relaxing day for the most part, kinda disappointed about not finding a chair that I could use when I don't wanna lay in my bed to work on my laptop for various reasons. Need a cool chair that is comfortable and I can sit in for a long periods of time and remain comfortable. Found the chair but can't find it in the store I don't wanna buy it online I need to see the chair before I purchase it to make sure that it is comfortable not to soft and not to hard. Geez guess I will keep on looking man o man. I will find the right chair and it will work. One more store to check before I venture out and go to more expensive places to find a chair that will meet my needs. I will find it and it will work for my needs.

People Watching

Last night I took my people watchin on the road and boy did I see alot. People watching a free hobby that I enjoy and brings me this weird satisfaction in life. I don't know why but I am intrigued by others and what they are doing or lack there of. The things that you will see by just opening your eyes and looking. Let me tell I got my fair share to make up for my lack of people watchin in public venues. Oh boy good times

Relax

Well I have enjoyed a night without touching a website a break is alwayz good. No need to overdo it slow steady pace will get it done and with minimal stress. I'll get there almost finished anyway.

Such A Dork

Wow I have actually spent the whole day in the house working on a website. Can you say dork much I think so. I have worked out and spent the rest of the day working on updating a website for a client so I can get paid. Money in the bank. Only stepped outside to get something out of my car then right back in the house. I need to find some friends or maybe a boyfriend. I run in a special with a group of people that are married have a significant other or have children so the opportunity to just be spontaneous doesn't exist for them. Damn Damn Damn. Well at least my DVR is cleaned of the couple of weeks of programming that I have recorded but not had a chance to watch. Now watching Charlie's Angels / Full Throttle to end the night. WOW CAN YOU SAY LOSER!

Grammar

Ok I might not have the best grammar or english diction but I am far from being non-grammatical there comes a time and place where you should speak proper and in those situations when it is not given back I feel perplexed with the talk. Adding extra letters on words at times does confuse me and its what I might say a pet peeve I have developed over the years. It seems to get worse as I get older and more into my career. Known when to use it and when to turn it off if you need to. I have read several post on facebook that I have to re-read because the grammar is so bad my brain can't comprehend. I mean seriously I wonder at times did you graduate from high school and if so how IN THE HELL. Did you do that since I have no indication that you did by your grammatical errors and overkill mispelling of words and pronunciation.

Level Of Dork

I have done it again up'd my level of dorkiness, it is alwayz interesting when I find things to top this already high level. I do it time and time again. Bein sought out for my knowledge in the field of IT people getting mad that I haven't shared my in-depth knowledge with them about my career profession. I keep it to myself unless I need to demonstrate people tend to take advantage of my services for free and then get mad when I discuss payment for my services with the all too timely lines of aww c'mon on you've known me for ...years. You should do it for free not free but a discounted rate. If you don't like it I think you should take ur happy azz to a repair shop and get really ripped off.

OMFG

What a day what a day. One PC problem after another and the unsolveable ones that leave you pondering long into the night. Will I lose sleep over these 2 separate issues doubtful but they are on my mind with other issues and concerns. Website updates, picture uploads, page setup. Is there no rest for the weary. Not in the near future but at least no second or third job working this weekend. Will I get rest not likely will be working on website updates so I can getnitnoff the to do list. Oh wait forgot something looks like I'll be trying to catch up on missed days of work and gathering information. All the hard work will pay off soon, I'm determined. Gotta make it just gotta make it.

The Drunkerds

Why is it that all the drunks flock to me especially the white ones. Turns more into creepy stalker. All the staring and creepy excessive eye contact. Jus the way I like em woohoo for me. I guess the only time they feel confident enough to talk or try and talk to me is with alcohol power. Its gives them super powers, of creepy. Ta Da.

Rehearsal Fun

Well today at my cousins wedding rehearsal I was a fill in bridesmaid how fun good thing i went and didn't stay lay round Nana n papa's house like I was going too. Interesting I must first time and my niece decided she didn't wanna walk down the isle and proved it tonight. Coming down at her own pace and doin wut she wanted since she is a diva. Definitely a premadana to say the least

Go Hard

Grind mode is in full effect work work work. Workin Hard so I can Play Harder. I keep to myself and that is the way I like it. No drama easy going calm cool independent.

Focus

Gotta get my focus back. Time to get lean cut and sexy. No more flab as I call time to get serious. I mean it let's get it I'm going for mine. I know what I want and I'm goin to get it. Let's go team lean and mean. I'm on my grind and taking this body transformation seriously.

Dedication

I know all my hard work and dedication will pay off one day. I work hard for what I have and won't stop. Only going forward won't go backwards only look backwards to see where I have been and where I have came from. I jus do me so u do u. Don't try and change me and I won't try and change you this is who I am and have been for my whole life. I don't have to get your approval I do me and it has been working for me so HA.

Busy

Great how I can go from not bein busy after work to havin to much to do and no downtime. l do is work, main job side jobs on top of side jobs. Website updates new website projects. Can't complain I need the money and will take it. Jus gotta get things prioritized and I'll b good. What came n first wut should o knock out first easy or hard. I'll get a break here soon some good quality me time me myself and I and maybe some good company. But we'll see.

Rhythmless

Its amazing how watchin someone else who has no ryhthm while you are dancing will mess up your whole vibe and what you got goin on. Especially on a line dance or a song that has a special dance it never fails. Gotta keep ya my right and not get side tracked.

Obligatory Buy

The unwritten rule or code that if I buy something from your child you will return the favor and purchase something from your child when the time comes. This is the rules of hustling your child, grandchild, niece, nephew school and fundraising items in the workplace. It is just pure courtesy if I buy something to help your kid or kids you will buy something. No set rules of how it works it is just assumed in the business world. Just another unwritten rule, that helps us all out in the end. You help me I help you. But there is always the one person that wants you to buy something from their child but when the time comes around for them to buy something from you they don't and give a bunch of lame excuses.

Rudeness

Its amazing how rude some people are and think nothing of it. Jump line then cop an attitude because I wait help the person who was next since u did jus come from the end of the line. And then don't tip I mean seriouslyseriously

Don't Blame Me

Don't blame me for your lack of pictures on your website. I have told you several times I need pictures before I can do anything. I mean this is common sense I thought but what do I know. Drop them off at my house I have a mailbox. Tell me how many pictures you have, how should I know how many you want to display. You are a handyman with \self owned business what do you want to showcase, how should I know. Then cop an attitude when I ask what all do you want to display and want to meet for me to show you what I have in mind. I don't have anything in mind I don't have pictures so I don't know what I will be putting up or the format. Are there different projects based on parts of the house you are working on. I am the website designer not the handy man I deal with getting things to display on the website not what you think you should put up You are trying to get new business what do you want to showcase, how simple is that.

On A Mission

I have decided that I am going to get into the best shape of my life for myself and to prove to myself I can accomplish anything if I only try and give it my all. Pushing my limits like never before to get unbelievable results and show all what can be done if you just try and takes the first step. Since the first step is the hardest but once you start you won't be able to stop. Develop the habit and it will stick just keep pushing and break down the boundaries that are set mentally. You are more powerful and stronger than you would ever believe until you try and see what you can do.

Another Year

Another year older I wonder what this year has in store for me the ups the downs. I await them all with much anticipation. Just a little more older, wiser more sound person and developing more into my adult life, living a life of inspiration finding ways to inspire others and be a role model for what you can do with your life if you live it right and never give up on what you want to do personally or business oriented. As i get older I look back on who I was as a child where I said I wanted to be, where I was in college and what I said I wanted to do then and where I am now. Although I have not done everything that I have said I wanted to do in my life I have handled the challenges that have came up with excellent perseverance. Not letting it keep me down for long but finding a way to overcome and to continue to achieve and move forward in my life and with my goals as they have changed.

Pump Ya Brakes

Before you go sending emails trying to make something seem like it is my fault we have not progressed on updating a website. When we spoke I informed you that I need pictures to begin the process of getting them back up on your website. Now you wanna act like I never said that when I know for a fact that I said it everytime you mentioned your website in the past 3 times you have spoke of not having pictures being posted on the site. Now you wanna throw it on me saying oh I thought you were looking for a new website to get the pictures up. I have never once mentioned that in any of the discussion I said I need the pictures before I can do anything. Now since you are in a hurry and need to get pictures on my website you wanna blow me up. I've been waiting for you funny how when you need something you are in a rush but when you are doing things for people houses it seems like you take your sweet time. And get to it when you get to it, I was going to use you for my basement floor but now I am unsure if I want to do this, I might go with a different company or someone that handles business meetings more professional and when they say they are going to start work and be there they will. Not I got held up or something came up. I don't have time for that I am a busy person. Granted you are on the low end of the pay spectrum when it comes to my house I am going to have to go a little higher it is looking in retrospect. Even if I had a website that I planned on using to get the pictures on your site I can't BECAUSE I DON'T HAVE ANY PICTURES TO GET UPLOADED.  Review the facts before you try and jump all fly with someone before you come out looking like a fool.

Birthday Approaches

As my birthday approaches I begin to look back on my life. I realize that I'm not where I'd thought I would be at this point in my life. But I am not where I use to be I have made some tremendous advances for my life. Another year comes and goes and I am one step closer to leaving my 20's and entering into a new decade of my 30's what will it bring. What does the 28th year of my life have to offer. What surprises are in store. I look forward to another year since someone will not male it to their next birthday or even tomorrow. The joys of life are never ending, the ups the downs I take them all in stride because they have made me the person who I am today and who I developed into throughout the last 27 years & 363 days.

Thought I Did

I love how like think I did something and when it comes down to it, I actually have done this several times. The latest incident was earlier this week I thought I responded to said email and have been waiting for a response but checked my sent mail and it shows that I have nit sent response to said email, when I clearly remember responding and asking a couple of questions that I needed answers to. I even remember what in wrote but not record of my sent email. Where did I send it, was this just a dream or some severely bad deja vu. It was so real good thing this doesn't happen often but damn this was enough drove me crazy. Has been racking my brain with this one all day. Hmmmm

Auto Start

Its hilarious how people freak with the auto start on my car. Its magic a car is starting/running but no one is in it or remotely around. The look of utter confusion is PRICELESS. Trying to look and see if anyone is in the car, the double triple and fourth checks, doesn't help that I usually have some form of loud hip hop or r&b music playing. The small things entertain me oh so much, I just chat get enough makes my day. Turned my slow Thursday into a lively one and picked things up my afternoon seemed to fly by with me thinking bout that the rest of the day and the countless other times that I have gotten people with my auto start, its great. Time and time again it never fails to entertain me. Gotta love it. Pure look of confusion and shock my the starting of an empty car and music blarong. Makes my day don't care bout nut in else.

Long Day

Man its been a long day, to start it all off no power this morning @4:45. So just hanging around in the dark listening to internet radio. Since its all I could do since I really didn't wanna workout in the dark but I did get some cardio and light lifting in. Did a quick HIIT workout and had to open garage door manually oh what fun. Just the way i wanted to start off my day let alone workweek. Even though it is a shortened week for me. And its my birthday week oh yeah. The big 2 8, I'm getting old look at what I've accomplished in the past 28 years, think I have done very well with myself.

Pressure

I love how I put so much pressure on myself to succeed at everything I do and even things that don't really matter. I doubt myself on occassion when things don't go my way of it I come up against a difficult challenge. I wonder if I can do it will I succeed do I have the willpower to make it happen. Why do I do this to myself time and time again, even on things that I can't control. Those are always the best something completely out of my control can have me worrying about it even if I can't affect the outcome. Wow I need to relax at times, I think that is why I workout so much to clear my head of all the nonsense that can get compounded throughout a normal day. Geez some of the smallest things can effect my day. At times I need to relax and take a step back and analyze the situation before getting all worked up over nothing. I do this especially when it comes to officiating I wonder if I will do a good job make the right calls. All leading up to the day and time of when I have to officiate. I have been officiating for 5 going on 6 years why do I constantly degrade my skills and ability to call a fair game. Others trust and like working with me since I call what needs to be called let go what doesn't effect the play or the flow of the game. I need to just relax and quit working myself up over absolutely nothing. I also am doing this with bartending now also wondering will I be able to make the drinks that I am asked to. Perform up to the level that I am suppose to be performing to. Hoping I can remember the ingredients in a drink. When some of this comes second nature with the basic drinks that every bartender knows how to make. Always wanting to do my best at anything I do is a reward and a curse in it's on outright way. Striving for perfection in everything, not settling for the mediocre lifestyle wanting the bigger and better. Not stopping and until I reach it but will I know when I am there. Will all this hard work and pressure pay off in the end, I sure hope so. Only time will tell.Words to live by relax and be confident you can do anything you set your mind and body out to do if you believe in yourself and your given talents.

Pace Myself

This is why I wait to do things until the last possible time well at least in the working world. Hurry up and get things ready for our new hires and low and behold after I finish working on the computers and getting everything set up. They move and I have to clean out another office and set it up for an existing rep. Slow and Steady is my usual pace but for some reason I wanted to knock these out and get back to what I had on my list of things to get done this week which has already been shot to hell once and yet again. I'll throw it out and start over next week which is already pretty much filled up with tasks that need to be done. Especially since I am off Friday. Cramming my normal week into 4 days should be fun with the added additions that I have to do faster than my normal pace. Things alwayz change but in the IT world they seem to change more frequently than normal and they should. Well at least in my current situation this is my position will I change possibly and probably yes. But the plan alwayz goes out the window when such things happen and then has to be picked up and made up for on another day which seems to never come or it comes but I am unaware of it. Since I am working on something else that has came along and been dropped on my plate. I wonder how people think at times I could have come up with this plan earlier to prevent late notices. And yet again it changes with a sudden phone issue. Oh how I love the issues that arise when it is almost quitting time and I am so ready to get out of here. And free myself from this constantly changing and sometimes annoying environment of utter chaos with the minions.

Constant Change

Why do you ask me to post something on the website only to have me change it once you decide that is not what you want to say about a said event. Maybe send me what you want me to have it say rather than having me guess since obviously we don't think alike in such matters. I do not like going back and doing things over and over again. I do not like the tedium of the work, I do have a day job and other things that I need to do that pay my bills not just give me a little extra money in the bank in or in my pockets especially since I am doing this work for dirt cheap. With all the updates and changes that you perform throughout the year I take one flat rate and haven't asked for more and I have been doing this going on 6 years for you. Being cheated on my money having to wait and listen to excuses of why I can't get paid when I ask. Most people would chaulk this up and say to hell with you and the website. I don't need this but I don't must be my damn nice nature. Make up your damn mind and tell me what you want me to say rather than cluttering up my email account or sending me text messages at all hours of the night I go to bed early and wake up early so I don't update certain things after a certain time since one I am not in the mood or I am busy doing other things that I have to do with my hectic and busy life despite what you may believe I do since I am an IT person. And the big stereotype is that we sit around all day surfing the internet when in pure fact we clearly don't we are very busy with real life situations that effect programs and environments. 

Thank You for not understanding

IT Frustrations

The frustrations of a IT person are endless especially when you come across the all to common not so simple fixes that just rattle your brain on why the system is acting the way it does. Especially in the corporate world I have ran across more wierd computer issues that I could have ever imagined. Some you know how to figure out with trial and error, then there are the ones that consume your whole day and the fix is rather quite simple just not that heard of or known for that much. When your normal computer fixing skills don't seem to work you begin to wonder and have internal conversations with yourself and other IT people if they are around and work with you to rack each others brains to see if you can find a solution to the seemingly non-solvable problem. Monday and Fridays seem to be the days for these type of issues nothing like a Monday morning computer issue that is brain and nerve racking that takes you all day to figure out and pretty much setting you back on the rest of the weeks work that you already had lined up. Or the Friday afternoon around 4 - 4:30 computer problems that make the last part of your workday go on forever and leave you with a headache and a head full of theories on the start of your weekend. Nothing beats thinking about work problems on a Friday night and all day Saturday, the best is when you figure out the problem and it was a simple yet uncommon fix that you would have never thought of. My personal favorite the computer just decides to work again with nothing special you have done to make it function regularly. I Digress and Continue to Search For The Answer to Today's Computer Mystery.

Inappropriate Wedding Reception Songs

I have come to the conclusion that there are some songs that should not be played at wedding receptions. I heard one of those songs today and it happens to be Rihanna - Birthday Cake. Just doesn't sound appropriate and a wedding there are other songs I'm sure that shouldn't be played at a reception. Let's think Jay Z / Kayne West - Niggas in Paris, Chris Brown - Strip. Just not appropriate to play at a reception don't know why but just doesn't fit the mood of the atmosphere. The list can go on and on that is all I have off the top of my head. Very interesting day and reception.

Status

Why do some people feel the need to post everything about there life on Facebook. No one cares what you did just now. Don't post things about yourself it only makes you look bad and you don't even know it. Makes people question your education and life based off of some of the things you post. The message hear is to THINK before you post. Then reread said post to make sure it makes sense.

Turn Signal

Does it mean you can just come over in to my lane were I am driving because you put your turn signal on. Uh I think not in my lane I have the right away despite what you think. Good thing I have good reflexes and am very aware of my surroundings and other drivers while I'm out. Then wanna look at me funny when I honk my horn like u ain't do nutin wrong. Bitch you almost hit me since in your world turn signal means get over without checking your blind spot my car will always be in the blind spot of ur SUV, look over your shoulder not just your rear view mirrors who obviously didn't see me and my red acura driving. I Mean Seriously.

Damn Kids

Wow some people have some bad a kids that they jus let run free during receptions so they can drink and mingle with other adults. Running rampant fillin up on whatever sugar they can find playing tag and whatever else they feel like. They make such a mess and we r left to clean it up at the end of the night. Geez people I'm saying at least try and keep them controlled rather than ignoring them until it is time to go.

Bad Reception

Well last night was an overly boring reception, slow music no real flow to the party if that is what u can call it. way too many kids an abundance of pregnant woman. No real big drinkers but they sure were some good azz tippers I will say the best night for tips that I have in awhile. I love it. The married men sure love to flirt with this hot little caramel drop I am especially when the wives aren't around. I ain't mad they were some lookers. The guy running the photo booth wuz a looker for sure, just the way I like em tall slim piece of white chocolate. Ow ow. I need to get me one of them asap sexy know how to treat me and boy do we look good together in my opinion. And that is all that really matters well in my opinion yes.

Too Nice

I was told today that I was too nice, I don't think I am but some do. I go out of my way from time to time but if I am already goin, then I will pick up something occassionally. I do on the other hand tend to go above and beyond in the girlfriend and friend category helping the ones that mean the most to me. I will help others when I can but dint use me or I will stop and not help as much as I can or could. If that is being to nice or leads to me being taken advantage of then well that is me. But don't cross me or you will regret it let me tell you. I am a spiteful person if need be and despite what you think I don't need you if you aren't goin to be a true and loyal friend the same way I am for you.

Pushin

Keep pushing you will make it and you can only go as far as you push yourself so push the limits then push through those and see where you can go. I continue to push myself to keep moving forward I am all about progression and continuing my forward progress not looking back. I have come to far to stop now no looking back only towards the future and my future self that I am continuing to work on daily. I am stronger mentally, physically than I ever thought i could be and in am continuing to develop and grow and I get older and mature and settle into my adult life, but not settle too much.

OMG

I couldn't do it more power to all the individuals that take care of little children it is definitely not my calling I don't have the patience nor the mentality yo deal with all this running and jumping screaming I would lose it. I picked the right calling for a career by dealing with computers and technology I need the quiet and somewhat predictable day to day routine. Even though my days are anything but routine or calm but I can make or break my own headaches depending on the atmosphere that I choose. Most of my craziness is self imposed and self pressure of trying to achieve and be the best person I can and should be.

Im Too Old

I'm too old for all this lack of sleep. Waking up @ the crack of dawn, working out, goin to work, then working one of many other jobs or hustles. Getting this money dies have a price and I am finding it out that it happens to be lack of sleep and social life. I need a sleep/stay cation pronto, asap, immediately. Where I go and do nothing and keep to my damn self and be completely lazy. Late Night & Early Mornings is my life and they suck. But I do it and look at the result a strong independent woman before you, I Am Woman Hear Me Roar!

Serious

Are you fucking serious how in the hell do you not have the correct name of the person you are insuring, seriously how fucking bad for customer service is this that you don't even have the name spelled right. How in the world am I to cash a check when this is not my name on a check that I've been waiting for so I can start the process of fixing up my house

WTH

This shit has got to stop. No matter how I dress I am constantly being acosted by females aka lesbians. What is it I need to know, I have to know. It is driving me crazy. It has to stop. I don't go out alot but a simple trip to the mall can turn and they are aggressive, and when you say you are straight the best response is are you sure like you are going to say no. Then they say well I bet I can change that, I don't want to be turned out or am I trying to. I keep to myself for a reason and this is it. Too many people assume that since I have muscles and like to wear boys shorts and baggy jeans from time to time that I am gay. Well here is news for all of you I am NOT nor have I ever been I am straight only men not females apply.


THANK YOU AND KEEP IT MOVING

Fun Times

Its amazing how kids and get you to do anything. Today after we all treated our dad to dinner for father's day, my niece informed her mom that she was going with me. My sister was oh so eager to let her stay and roll wit me. How lucky am I my day plans changed in the snap of a finger, but I still got what I needed done taken care. So my house doesn't look like the eyesore of the street especially since its the corner house. Busy day once I got going but its all good. It is what I do.

Overload

All I do is work it feels like. I need some me time asap, what to do what to do. I know relax around the house I think so but when, surely nit soon enough. The day will come I know and I wait in anticipation I can only imagine what awaits.

Challenging The Odds

Looking back at my life and all the things that I have done, leads me to see how many times I have challenged teh odds and came out on top. From being small in stature but having a big heart and more determination and desire than the rest. I have accomplished alot in my life over the last 27 years. Looking forward to the future I see only bigger and better things coming. I have been told time and time again that I can not do something and what have I done but gone out and done exactly what I set out to do. People that know me understand by telling me I can't do something is going to only make me want to do it more as to prove you wrong and show the nay sayers that I can and will do whatever I set my mind too. Playing basketball through college after being told in the 4th grade I was too small and that I would never be able to play for as long as I did. Being a computer programmer / IT Specialist a field dominated by males. Being a female basketball official another field that is dominated by men. I see myself challenging the standards that are out there and excelling to show others that it can be done, as long as you have the determination adn do it for yourself and no one else. Be who you want to be don't let others tell you what they can't those people are called haters there job is to hate and try and discourage you at all turns no matter what you set out to do. Believe in yourself and you can do anything and will go further than you could have ever imagined as a child. Even with your childhood dreams changing after you become an adult don't let that stop you keep dreaming and keep believing in yourself and you will accomplish anything.

Own Up

Why can't sum people own up to their faults, blaming everyone else and never taking responsibility for things they do always pointing the finger at someone else. Never stopping to evaluate the situation look at what they did but always pointing the finger at someone else when u r at fault. Own up to take responsibility for something and others. See how people see u and don't respect or even think about how ur lack of responsibility effects people around you. Your younger siblings don't respect you or even count on you for simple things. I mean damn grow the f up and be a man. Own up to your faults like the rest of us and the world.

Exhausted

Damn I so tired need some much needed and deserved rest. But no gotta get this money to fix up my house and to keep moving forward. I will get a break soon going hard to get to where I want to be and not where I have been must move forward no matter what. I'm gonna make it I know it and believe I can and will. Just got to have the faith. And trust me I do

Never A Dull Moment

There is never a dull moment n my life personal or family. Its alwayz somethin this week my dad went H.A.M. on the older step bro its been a long time coming and I wondered when it wuz gon happen. Its been said that it was gon b done and it has happened as of 3am Saturday, June 9th. I jus don't get why you want or can live like that. Have u no self pride have u no shame. Doesn't a parent want better for their child, aren't u suppose to lead by example. Something isn't clicking, connection error. Start Reboot Ctrl Alt Del. Something needs to be done since this is a vicious cycle that leads nowhere good. Prove us wrong show us talk is cheap at this point. The power is in the putting. Do for yourself and others will help when needed trust me I knw this for a fact.

Move On And Do Better

Privacy

Now I remember why I keep to myself again. I don't like all these people up in my business who only come around to voice their opinion and offer no help in the situation. It is real easy to say something  while you are on the outside looking in. I have to be realistic about the situation, can't just up and leave I do own my house I am not renting. So up and move on the spur of the moment and go where, not to mention I still have to pay a mortgage on this house and then on top of that find another one and on top of that deal with all the fees that are involved with putting a house on the market looking for a new place. While I stay where if I was to just up and move out of my current house. I may not be poor but I am certainly not balling to that extent where I can pay 2 mortgages and still pay my other bills. I could see if I have been having problems in my house for the past 5 years but this is the first time I have had such an incident. I work hard for what I have and either way I still have to fix the window. So what the hell are you nay sayers saying what you would do. But wait if the shoe were on the other foot I think not. Offer only positive info, better home owners insurance, a person who fixes windows, etc. You can keep all other comments to ya damn self cuz I don't need them or have time to deal with your lack of reality expectations. Grow up live in the adult world and not that of a child where things magically go away.

Hustle Mode

Now my hustle mode has been pushed into overdrive against my will due to the assholes that decided it would be cool to shoot my house wit a BB/pellet gun last Friday night. I had other plans of what I was going to do with the money in my hustle acct alwayz I have named it. All the funds from my various huatles comes in handy when I need some extra money for monthly expenses or to have some fun and buy something for myself.

Thanks for knowing what I should do with my hard earned money. Before I get the chance to make up my mind on a home project.

Oooh The Headache

Oooh the headaches of home ownership, now I am in the waiting phase of the ongoing issue with my house that has occurred this past weekend. Now time for contractors to try and oversell me something when all i want and need at the current moment is a window that is not full of little holes. Regardless to say I know I need to redo the other windows but my finances do not permit such extravagant repairs and home makeovers at this point in time. I am in the baby step process of my home remodels. Knock some of the smaller things out and then go for the big ones is what I had in mind. I want to start off small, for instance painting my room and my Woman's Cave. Trying to make my Bachelorette Pad one that stands out and defines me even more so than it does. I am working inside out since that appears to be cheaper than outside in and my wallet and finances greatly appreciate me taking my time and moving along at a slow pace so I do not overwhelm myself or go broke in the process. I work hard for what I have and know what I want and won't stop until I get it. I push myself because I know that good things come to those who wait and work towards their goals. Never settle never stop. I'm on a mission that I chose to accept, everyone has an opinion of what I should do. Have the insurance company write the check out to me instead of the company. I really don't have the patience to deal with such things I like quality work and since this is a rather big factor and viewpoint on my house I need to think through all aspects of the situation and go from there. I am currently just waiting to see what these companies are going to say about how much said window will cost. It's huge 75" H & 74.25" W, not your average window by far. I guess I am in the pricing stage as I have named it since that is what I am waiting for before I can start and move on and not see this eyesore that is now on the fron t of my house. 

I would like to thank the knucklehead(s) who decided I didn't need some of my well earned money that I had in the bank. I actually had other plans for that money but now those plans have been diverted. Thank You so much what was I thinking fixing up my basement. Who needs a better floor and somewhere else I can go to do things in my house that I pay for. Why do I need to use my basement as a common lounge area if I decide to have people over. I can just go upstairs to my den/workout room and we can sit on the futon and floor and watch tv.

Congratulations I applaud you for knowing what I need better than myself. 

Day 3

Now I am even more peeved about this whole situation even more so than I was initially. Thanks to my wonderful home owners insurance claim agent, who was a big help. Let me tell you I could be an insurance claims agents if all you have to do is suggest looking in the yellow pages for companies that do window repair. Wow I can come up with that diagnosis, genius I tell you. I defnetly have the wrong idea of what an insurance company should do, or the help they should provide on such issues. Silly me thinking insurance was to assist and ease my concerns about a situation with my house. I do pay a substantial amount of money for such savvy informative service. Now since I am spiteful individual especially when provoked I feel that it is my job to try and find the most expensive company I can find to do the work & receive estimates from.

Also on a side note why are the window companies that I have reached out to way more helpful during this stressful time than my insurance company who I pay every month to keep my home owners insurance. Who I thought I paid to assist in such Home Owner Issues.

I think it is time to shop around for a new home owner insurance company...Maybe one with more customer service needs to assist individuals in trying times.

It is time to move on I think.

Day 2

Now entering day two of utter annoyance. When will it go away a little better now that it has been a min. Now jus Sittin and waiting on the damn insurance be better if I wud have at least heard something from the claim agent
But no nothing the longer it goes the more annoyed I become and will become. Jus guessing this is the start to a partial home remodel. I was getting around to it but trying to line other things up first but reality has told me other was. To hell with my plan on to the next one. Jus have some unanswered questions like why what and who. Just so random I don't bother anyone keep to myself try and stay drama free. Go to work n watch my niece had chill at home. N bang tons of unanswered questions remain.

WTF

Well I have had an eventful day did my normal morning routine, worked out went downstairs, checked the mail, looked out the big window and to my surprise found that it had bb wholes in every pane of the big 6 pane window. WTF is all I can say I am still upset and pissed off to the highest level of pisitivity. I had the cops at my house for a police report before noon, talked to my home insurance people to place a claim. Now I am waiting for everything from the police report to be completed to hearing back from my insurance claim handler. I have had a fun filled saturday. I had to workout again to relive some stress before I hurt the first person that pisses me off. Washed my car to calm down some more now enjoyin some me time before I have to go bartend tonight. What type of foolishness let's jus say I need some TLC  to relax myself and to keep my mind off the nonsense that has came upon my dwelling were I go for peace and serenity. I have to get over this move on and not let this keep me too down.

WTF WTH TFB.... I am jus in pure shock of what has happened to my house. Well the positive side no one was hurt it could have been worse, I could have been hurt the damage could have been way worse. I am happy no one was injured and that it appears to just be a random incident.

I heard something last night but didn't think anything of it now I have put two and two together and realized that strange unusual sound I heard last night was probably the result of the shots being taking at my window. Let's just hope that it was random and that my house was not targeted or I was the target of said attack.

ALL I CAN SAY IS WHAT THE FUCK! WTF WTF WTF

Overthinking

Why do people over think simple situations. Some things are just plain, simple, straight forward. No need to get more in detail than necessary. Which leads to more people misunderstanding what you are saying versus what you think you are saying. Too much complication in the wording, do what you say mean what you say. Too many different ideas too many perspectives that conflict  causing more issues than necessary. Decide something and stick with it quit leaving all this gray area. Deal with it everything changes no matter what you.

Intimidating

Why do I give off an intimidating vibe is it because I have so much and I am determined. I scare more guys of before they even get a chance to know me and find out that I am a down to earth laid back woman. Having a house, car, multiple jobs, no kids; I guess it puts off a vibe that I am better than other people when by in no means do I feel that way. I have my problems and insecurities just like other people I chose not to put them on display for everyone to see or read about. I like to keep to myself and handle my problems myself. I have learned that I am stronger than I appear. I can handle a variety of things and do everyday. I have learned to do things for myself so that they get done, not because I don't trust or need others it is just the way I was raised do it for yourself and you will know that it got done correctly and how you wanted it to. I teach myself how to do alot of things that the average female can't or won't do. I don't have time to wait for someone else to come do things for me especially if I want them done now. And when I mean now I mean now. Not tomorrow, not at your convenience now. This is why I just have decided to do things for myself. So if that makes me unapproachable then I will deal with it, I am just doing what I know how to do. I was taught well and know what I deserve and won't stop until I get there and get it. I Am On A Mission and I Choose To Accept It.

Just Being Me...Since It Is All I Know, I Am Going To Make It, By Any Means Necessary

Assuming

Why do people automatically assume I am gay just because I played basketball, single and I like to dress comfortably. I don't dress to impress others when I am on my down time I like to dress so I am comfortable even if that is wearing boys shorts as they are called. I am who I am for me and no one else. If you would get to know me you would know that I am just a normal gurl that works, and chills. I don't go out much I stay in the house and chill, it is free and I can do what I want at home for free, for the most part since it has already been paid for. I am just a tomboy nothing more, I am attracted to men not women. I dress in what I like to wear, I am not the most girly person but that doesn't mean I am gay. I am in no means gay or homophobic, I just dress for myself and no one else. My motto is if you like me you will like me no matter what I am wearing. What happened to it is what is on the inside that counts, looks aren't everything. By no means am I an ugly person don't get me wrong. I am just a normal late 20 year old woman that works, has hobbies, feelings and things I want to accomplish in my life. So if I don't show you the time of day don't automatically jump to I am a lesbian cuz I won't give you any or deal with your nonsense. I know what I want and have worked to hard for what I have to stop now.

It's called determination and I have no time for your mess, I have enough on my own and don't deal with drama. I choose to be single rather than deal with your drama whatever it may be. Get on my level and maybe we can talk, but don't just through out I am gay because I don't want anything to do with you or your nonsense.

Mission Accomplished

Well I didn't brick the computer so I guess my day was a success. Went on a whim and upgraded an XP box, the upgrade is a simple process no hiccups as of yet. We will see how the computer acts tomorrow and the next couple of days before I put it into production for a user. But the computer should work enough memory it treated the upgrade as it did when I was doing a re.upgrade of a previously downgraded macine . We shall see. All and all a success.

On To The Next One

Unusual Circumstance

During my many games of officiating today I witnessed my wierdest event by far. A girl got her weave knocked out. I wanted to call something but I am unsure what the protocol is for such an infraction. I think I was in shock the player did get tangled up but no foul I wanted to call a foul but I couldn't think of what mechanic I would use and what he foul would be. I wonder???

Bad Basketball

Some kids jus not need to every pick up a basketballagain. Give it up its not your forte. Try something else, the sport is not for everyone some need not apply. Try your talents elsewhere it might serve u better. Maybe its jus not for you play for yourself not anyone else and you will succeed at anything you do. At some point you have to make a decision and decide who and why you are playing and for what reason should help this choice move smoothly

Windows 7 Update

Well tonight I'm attempting upgrade my old laptop from Windows Vista to Windows 7. Why you ask because I'm not a fan of vista plus the laptop keeps freezin up and I am tired of trying to fix it and get it functional. Plus an upgrade writes new windows system files. Plus I have no other use and its a test to see how the process goes and how difficult it is to upgrade a laptop versus a desktop. So far it seems the same.

Randomness

Some more random thoughts need to figure out how to get a ladder over my house so I can clean out my gutters. Looks like a mini garden need to rectify that situation. Making my whole house look bad. Plus I'm the corner house gotta look sharp so I can gain some haters. Making small steps to fix my house up. Outside in is the way I am gonna do it, baby steps I am taking little by little I will get there. I am doin it for me and no one else that is why I am gonna get it done.

That's how I do. Do you n ima do me.

Does It Matter

Why are some people so concerned with who knows what. Is it that big of a deal, it happened get over it. I would have found out anyway not like I don't come over the house regularly. Jus funny how the first words were don't tell Alicia. Really who am I what am is gonna do. Add it to the list its too long to keep up with wut number it would b but it does make a funny story. One to laugh about 4 days and days. Own up to it and move on

Keyboard Shortcuts

Do you use keyboard shortcuts while using your computer throughout the day. I do they make easy steps easier and require less effort. I kike shortcuts I have even created a few of my own on my personal computers. Things I do alot to make regular steps easier and less time consuming to and more productive. Since I work on computers during the day I like shortcuts to make the same tasks go faster if u have to do them multiple times in a day. Relieves the monotony of the day little by little every step counts. Check out this link from How To Geek with multi browser shortcuts for all the major browsers, chrome, ie, Firefox, safari, etc

How-To Geek » 47 Keyboard Shortcuts That Work in All Web Browsers

Random Driving Adventures

<p>While on the highway back from Cleveland I saw an overly petty driver who refused to get out of the fast lane once a car behind them flashed their lights. The two care proceeded to tailgate each other back and forth until the newer Audi flew past the older Pontiac putting an end to the driving hissy fit. Made my day as I looked back in the rear mirror to see this spectacle which went on for about 3 miles. Great times don't know why I got so much joy out of that. But I did and I liked it even though I thought it wuts gon to lead to an accident but it didn't and the joy wuz gon once the Audi sped off and left the Pontiac in its dust.

Oh So Tired

Oh I am so tired, all these jobs and lack of sleep are gettin to me. I need a break a day where I do nothing but sleep to recouperate. I need sleep and rest what to do what to do. It is

Multiple Jobs

<p>&lt;p&gt;I have a ton of jobs, sometimes I wonder why and where all the money goes. It feels like all I do is work where is the reward where is my life I'm n my late 20's. I should be hangin out wit my friends not workin all the time and jus kickin it at home all the time when I'm not workin. But I work hard for what I have and I want more and will not settle for less. I have accomplished alot in my young life and I want and I will keep going until I reach my peak and I make it.

Let Me Be Me

All I ask is let me be me. You have known me for all my .life don't act like my lifestyle and attitude jus happened overnight I have been this way for awhile. I have not changed jus evolved myself as I have gotten older. I have gotten snappier, more smug more smart ass but I have always been myself no matter what despite popular belief. I am not trying to be something I'm not just being the best me I can be despite all of life's obstacles. The good the bad and all that in between. I Am What I Am.

Real Job

I do have a real job you know. Yes I am an IT person but I am not alwayz updating websites. I can not at the drop of a hat and update the website. Yes u pay me a retainer fee each year but that truly does not cover all that I update and do on the website this is a seriously reduced fee. Don't go over board and get antsy when I can not change things on the website immediately. I have to do the job that pays the bills first, then onto the side hustle that funds my extra electronic things.

A Bit Of Randomness

It has been an interesting day, work was great fun random program issue that we haven't seen before after a windows 7 re-upgrade after an initial downgrade to XP. Now back to Win 7 since we are in the updating to Win 7 of all systems. Oh the fun I have with my job. Mondays are so much fun and eventful. Then gettin home n Cuttin my grass some random people jus chillin outside kinda weird and creepy. Then a random lady walking down the street n jeans and jacket. Then bout 20 min later if that coming back up the street sayin have u seen my car I think someone stole my car. Is this a safe neighborhood? Jus a day full of weird, random, creepy, jus plain strange events to conclude my Monday.

People Watchin

Oh how I enjoyed myself last nite during my people watchin time aka bartending shift. It amazes me how some people can't do a dance that tells u how to do it in the lyrics; cha cha slide, casper shuffle,jus a couple I witnessed last nite. The DJ having to stop the song and say everyone face the DJ table we r goin to start over so they all go the right way and get the danceright. How entertaining is that? Of made my night and whole day. HILARIOUS. Then to top it off a couple of the reception attenders asking me to come from behind the bar and show them how to do a couple of the dances. Good thing they didn't play teach me how to doughier. I would have lost it. But there were a couple that were gettin it in. Doin The Jerk, The Wobble, Bootycall

Hardware Headache

Oh the joy of PC hardware, what's the point of selling a video card with 3 outputs but only being able to use 2 of the outputs simultaneously. The kicker not putting it on any of the information about the product, specs, description. Probably should put that on the box n the product specifications or descriptions. Put it somewhere so it is known before buying the product and expecting to be able to use all 3 outputs at the same time. Driving myself crazy over the whole issue. Now it all makes sense after the hours and days of trying to get the video card to work with 3 monitors. Makes you wanna pull your hair out or hit something several times over and over again to relieve all your frustration.

BRAIN/NERVE RACKING MOMENTS IN IT.

Irony

Oh how I love the irony of being an IT Specialist working on others peoples workstation and office equipment all day. I come home and don't have the urge to look at a computer let alone fix one even if it is my personal laptop. From computers, software, hardware, applications and other IT related issues. Jus wanna come home ans relax and not think about computer issues. Its funny and ironic that a IT person with a non functioning computer. But then I thought about it a lot of people with skill professions don't like to work on the problem or issue that is their job in their work life.

Gotta love the irony

Life Lesson

Today's life lesson...forgive forget but always remember so not to repeat. It is important part of life to forgive and forget as to not hold grudges. It takes a load off to just forgive and forget and let go of the past and move on as a person and develop more as you are to continue to develop and evolve. Evolution is the key to success evolve in learning day to day life and bein the person who you are.

I forgive, forget and remember as not to repeat past mistakes in the future. I don't like to continue past mistakes  making new mistakes and learning from the old ones is how I grow and continue to move and press on.

So Remember Forgive Forget & Remember As To Not Repeat The Past

Productivity

Word of the day is productivity I got everything done around the house that I wanted to. From cutting the grass doing my laundry cooking food for the week. Wow I was way more productive than I planned today. And on so little sleep I am so proud of myself. Giving my self a standing ovation Bravo Bravo Bravo. Have you had a day where u got everything you wanted to get done finished and then some. Well that was me today I was on it. Knocked it all out, I feel good now to reward myself. What should I do hmmmm. Ill think of something. Yeah for me.

It just feels good to get everything off my to do list before the work week starts and I back to runnin round like crazy I feel.

Warm Weather

What is it about the warm weather that means less and less clothing is worn at Receptions. The outfits that are out now and it isn't even that warm yet
Its just a taste of what is to come I don't wanna see wut the hot weather brings.

I don't know if I can take it well my eyes is the question. It will a show for sure I can say that much without seeing it yet but it is coming

Damn You Skinny Jeans

Damn you skinny jeans, how I loathe thee. I should be able to wear them with ease. But no these muscular calves of mine make it hard to wear them. Always having to adjust them becomes very annoying. Skinny jeans are evil and whoever made them should be slapped multiple times with random objects. Hand, chair, book, shoe, really whatever is in reach. And as public service announcement everyone doesn't need to wear skinny jeans they don't look right on all sizes I'm sorry that is just my opinion.

Until my next rant.

New Laptop

When it came down to it I picked the model and brand for a laptop that I was familiar with and that I liked and that has gotten me through the last couple of years. I manage to keep electronics for awhile especially due to the fact that I am a IT person and can pretty much fix any problem that may arise with a laptop if I feel like taking the time and doing it after a long day of work. Just don't seem to have the urge to work on my own computer or a friend or family member after a day of work and looking at a computer screen or hardware issues all day. Just is funny that I can have  a broken PC at home but don't wanna fix it and when I get to work I  them since it is my job and I do it on a daily basis. Now since I have a new laptop which is the same model & brand as my previous laptop just newer and better operating system. I think I am going to try and fix my old laptop and maybe even put Windows 7 on it so it is of more use to me than it currently is now as a paper weight. A overly expensive piece of technology that is outdated but still in good working condition just have to fix it. Think I am going to do a complete system wipe and start from scratch literally, only download the necessary software, and of course some that aren't necessary but ones I like to have and need for my computing purposes. When it came down to the decision I it based on specifications and the same model and brand that I used for years prior had the better equipment and worked for my currently needs. I look at specs and make the best educated choice based on my needs. Which can be completely different from another user that has other purposes for a laptop than my needs are. Everyone is different, you might pick a piece of equipment based purely on price and not care at all what the brand & model is. The choice is yours make it and love the equipment

Anger Management

How do you manage your anger. What do you do to manage your anger. We all have different techniques that we use I have changed my anger managing techniques over time just a bit. A minor tweak since I am older and need to act like it and not show frustration. I use working out as my go to now a days, listenin to rock or rap, writing pretty much anything I can do low-key to get my mind off the situation that upset me. I use to snap and go off the deep edge instantly when I was in school and played sports. I hit various objects, threw things punched objects, i have broke my thumb several times due to anger and frustration that has hit. Do you have a temper how do you get over it. I have found other ways to work through anger as I have matured and gotten older and smarter in my life. Working out, meditation, writing, taking some time to myself, these are my current stress relievers. What do you do, do you even know what you do or how you manage your anger or stress.

Crazy People

have you ever tried listening to what is being said rather than hearing what you choose to hear. THis is not the first time what I have said has been
blown out of proportion and taken for what it was not meant to be. I say random remarks with no harm intended but you have taken what I have said to
a whole new level more than once. i can only bite my tongue for so long before you hear something else that isn't implied or said in a simple conversation
or in response to a conversation that was being had. L.I.G - Let It Go, get over it move on. Ask me if you have a problem with what I have said, why go
to a third party and complain to them. am i not an adult, responsible person reasonable. i mean really you are out of your damn mind, but htis will get taken
out of context also. so maybe just keep your crazy comments to yourself and let me be me for that is all i know how to be and who i am. i haven't
changed, but since you hear what you want i guess we will alwayz have some type of issue. no matter how i try and avoid confratation and
unnecessary drama. y not deal with the issue at hand that no one is allowed to talk about and every time it gets brought up you have to try and take
something majorily overboard with a conversation that meant no harm just stating an obvious fact. don't take your insecurities out on me because I am
who i am and work hard for what i have and will for the most part help anyone in need if they ask. i can only help those that want to be helped. i don't
go out of my way and help those i don't feel are worth it and my time. i can only look up to people that i feel like have something to teach or show me
i can't help it that some people piss away opportunities that have been granted while others take full advantage of what they have and see something
they want and go after it and won't stop until they succeed and get what they want and feel like they deserve.

DAMN CRAZY PEOPLE open your ears and hear the whole conversation just not what you want to hear or feel is being said to cause pain. I am not that person
nor have I ever have or will be. Think about it.

Wow

I love how a simple word taken outta context can be blown completely out of proportion and taken not for what it was meant and how it was said. Some people just can't take a joke, sarcasm simple humor. Wow a simple sentence has been blown way outta proportion and made into something that I never meant for it to sound like or even mean. Adding words and thoughts behind a simple word phrasing is unbelievable. Things have been turned aroudn in ways that I had no intention of saying or making them mean such things. I ama  sarcastic smart ass wow, I have been this way for the majority of my life and the people/person that got offended by a comment has known me my whole damn life for the most part. I have not just turned into this person in the last few days I have been this way and mean to harm with what I say. But when you add a word or remove a word from the context of a conversation awlay here you go a total different meaning to what I have said or meant to say. I am sorry that you can't take a joke or hear the sarcasm in my tone when I say certain things. I will just keep my comments to myself when you are around since you take things to a level never imagined by me when things were said.


Until next time when I return to my not giving a DAMN about what you think. But for know I will keep the peace and keep my mouth shut and not talk to you since you turn my words around so frequently anyway into something that is not even mentioned in the context of a conversation but added by your own ears to hear.


AND I'M OUT!

Things I Encounter

The things that I come across in my many occupations that I currently hold. From clothing choices, life choices, comments. The possibilities are endless. I have observed several things some people just shouldn't do. The biggest thing I have seen is outfits, people please buy clothes that fit, remember these words just cause it is made in your size or what you think your size is does not mean it is meant for you to wear. Do you look in the mirror before leaving the house or just say I look good and say F it. The by far funniest thing I have seen is people dancing that can't are overly drunk and just plain are doing to much on the dance floor. Makes my life a very interesting thing. Just can't get enough of the all the wonderful things my eyes have seen.

Until next time.

Neat Mobile Apps

I have found a couple of cool apps I would like to share the first is; HeyTell which works on both Android & iOS, you can send to people that don't have the app install. It works similar to Nextel push to talk so you can send important or urgent msg to recipients. Best of all its free how bout that.

Next, Sound hound/Hound let's you figure out a song by listening to lyrics typing part of the song this does come in handy when you are trying to find a  same to a song but can't think of it, well hear you go. I have used this several times to figure out the name to a certain song I can't remember or a new so g that I like.

Tune in for the next installment of cool apps I discuss.

Priority Jumpers

We all have things that trump our priority list that we make for ourselves whether it be work or personal. More so for work everything going fine checking things off your list then in my field I get an IM or call and it happens to be the president of the company computer and I have to drop everything and hope to it. The rest of the day shot all cuz of one computer that has urgency but I do it and it keeps me employed. Just have to rearrange my day and week sometimes up the stress level and aggravation that comes with it. The world of IT. How I love and loathe thee at the same time. What trumps your list whether you are in IT, sales, management, retail, whatever. We all have priority jumpers and we have to deal with them and make do for the better of the company, ourselves or others.

Vat Of Useless Information

At times I feel like a vat of useless information from random computer knowledge I have gained over the years to random facts that people don't seem to care about just a whole bunch of randomness just tons of information that is rarely used. Just taking up space in my head. Hopefully it doesn't become crowded and unable to gain more knowledge

D.I.Y. Project

I have decided on my next DIY project I am going to make a 2 sided USB flash drive so that I can carry one flash drive no matter where I go. Got the idea from Lifehacker Instructables and think I want and could very well use one of these. It looks simple enough not to drive myself completely crazy with the design and utility set up. The endless possibilities, love how I become intrigued by a variety of things and that I set my mind to something and set out to do and low and behold I do it.

Internal motivation and desire is what I live on.

Morning Workouts

I use to be one of those people who dreaded getting up in the morning, wouldn't even think about working out in the morning. But changing this part of my daily routine has worked out very well for me. Since after work things can come up and the lazy factor and creep in. So by making myself wake up before work and workout I feel energized during the day and feel like I am ready for whatever the day brings. I do still workout in the morning before work but now I have added a couple small workouts to my evenings that don't require equipment to keep me on my goal of being fit and fierce. Before I became a morning workout person I would have never thought about getting out of bed 3 hours before I leave for work. It does make the day go better for me. Find a routine that works for you, if you are not a morning person start off small set your alarm in the morning 15 minutes early then after about a week or so add some more time to that and before you know it you will become a morning person with being able to get up and get things done. I just love morning workouts and hate to miss them because I feel as if I haven't done anything that day if I don't get in my workout before my day becomes to hectic and overwhelmed with daily tasks that seem to drain almost everyone. Start your next day with a morning workout and see how you will be hooked after a couple of weeks. Just can't stop gotta keep going at all cost. Do it for yourself and you will succeed. Don't listen to the naysayers ignore and do you and be the best person you can be. Try a new workout every so often as to not get stuck in a rut or hit the dreaded workout plateau. Good luck.

Dropbox New Feature

The popular cloud storage system has added 'Quick Link File & Folder Sharing' which simplifies the process of sharing a file or folder with someone else. No need to set up a share folder. I might try this out now and share a couple documents that I have been emailing back and forth with a couple people since I didn't feel like going through the hassle of setting an actual share. Makes it easy with the click of a mouse. Simplicity is the way to go and makes things more user friendly and people to actually want to use them when there aren't several steps that need to be done in order to reach a simple goal. In this case it happens to be Sharing a file or folder. I have thought of many times where I wanted to allow people access to a file but never got around to it because of the extra steps that were needed. Now no more just click the 'Get link' and you are on your way. Dive in and see for yourself.

Buckyball Madness

Got my first set of buckyballs and I can't seem to put them down. These things r addictive. I cant help myself, making a variety of shapes. Making a cylinder is way easier than making a cube I will say. These damn overly strong magnets wut have I got myself into. What to make now I am going to have to get some more and maybe the buckycubes to ass to my collection of nonsense items I tend to buy myself. Think I have found my new crack and addictive toys. Should have bought them sooner then maybe I shouldn't I do need to be productive and get things done so I can make a living and not be completely involved in playing with my nonsense toys that I buy. Have to do something to occupy my time and fix the boredom.

Intimidation

I was told that u was intimidating the other day. I don't know why I appear that way it has gotten me thinking and it might be true. I am just alwayz on my grind and usually about my business and have no time for games or excess drama. Just overly determined and on my grind I gotta get it just gotta get it. Maybe I can look a bit intimidating but it is not my goal. Just how I am perceived damn perceptions can be a tricky thing, once somebody develops a perception of you it is hard to break out of that. But life goes on and I will perceive despite the odds. I will continue to do me and be who I am. The issue of perception is a tricky thing to overcome by people since everyone is different and has different beliefs and opinions of people and things that happen throughout our daily lives.

Computer Decision

I have finally made up my mind about what to do about a computer laptop and desktop. I am going to buy a laptop and build myself a custom computer so it can have everything I want without having to customize it to my personal needs. Just have to figure out what brand and model laptop I want. So many choices so many options. One thing for sure is that it has to do more than my old laptop which is a must with all tech gadgets I buy. Need bigger and better when I upgrade phone, tv, computer, car, living arrangement. All about doing and being better. Now the real search begins got to start doing my research and figure out what I want and when I am gonna get it.

Trying New Things

Debating on trying some new food trying to broaden my variety which I have never been good at. I'm kinda stuck in my ways but I am going to try and see what haapens. New vegetables, aspargus edamame getting more healthy and ki king my bad habits is a goal and I am going to achieve it just have to stick to my guns. New word is sparingly and I will accomplish this might take some time. Since it won't change over night but with time. I'm ready and willing here I go, watch out.

Tough Workout Regimens

I have done several of the workout dvds that sculpt and tone your body. Creating a total body makeover, I am happy with the results. I have done Billy Blanks Boot Camp Elite, P90X Classic & P90X Lean, TurboFire, P90X2 & Insanity {currently}. All these workouts have kept me motivated to continue achieving and becoming the most fit individual I can be. I have found out more about myself by sticking with these tough workouts and busting them out over the last couple of years. Workouts I have lost some unwanted pounds, become more toned and gained more muscle definition something that I have always wanted and now I am achieving it by sticking to my guns and staying disciplined. I get more cut and defined as time continues to go on and I love it. Just can't stop have to keep pushing for myself and no one else I think that is why I have been so successful. I continue to reach my goals that are continually changing as time and workouts change. Changes each day each workout. Never stop keep pushing and busting through the plateaus. I love it not that I was overweight before now I am just becoming a more in shape individual, I am actually in better shape now than I was during my high school and collegiate basketball days which I know is surprising but I am and I love it and I will continue to keep going for myself despite what others say or what they think. I workout because I like to not because it is a chore. Change your mindset and you will see a difference don't believe me just give it a try and stick to your guns and watch the willpower develop.

Desktop or Laptop

Should I get a desktop or laptop. I need both but a desktop is portable and easy to accommodate my needs but a desktop I can do more with just portable. Even though a desktop has more storage space and faster doing certain things. Which should I get first since I want or need more. I'm leaning towards the laptop but not sure which brand or model I should get or want. What features are a must, which can I go without. So many choices to think about. Hmmm what to do what to buy.

Light Workout Day

It was a recovery day for the new workout I'm doing. Insanity but I feel like I haven't done anything but I feel sore n my legs. Do I need to do other workouts so I feel like I've done something today. Hmmm what to do what to do.

I'm A Ninja

It is one of those days where I am trying to stay under the radar in terms of being seen, since that is usually when somewhere needs something. "Oh hey I've been meaning to ask you". The joys of being in IT and the only one in the building today. Something is bond to go wrong since I have other stuff to do and catch back up on since I had a mini vacation and came back to the other IT guy off. So I think I have enough to do and keep myself busy without the other things going wrong and them needed to be fixed asap. Since it is the way of the world.

New Workout

Started a new workout routine yesterday, Insanity. I feel the pain sore using muscles that haven't been used for awhile since I took some time off after finishing up P90X2. More toned now time to get slim and cut. Just keep pushing and pushing I'm gonna make it. I do it for me and no one else I think that is the reason why I can keep going through and making it through these tough regimens I set up for myself. Do it for yourself and no one else and see the results start to develop. Have willpower and determination and see how far you can go in all things you set your sights on.

Latest Fad

Do you jump onto the latest fafs, diets, workouts. Do you bounce around with the latest infomercials. Does that sound like you, does it work for you, haapy with the results. Try sticking with something and seeing it through til the end. Develop a good habit, it only takes 3 weeks. Try it and see do a little at a time until it sticks and becomes part of your daily routine. It will be tough but keep at it and you will see. Start now and stop the yo yo effect and stick to your guns.

What I Needed

Feel rejuvenated a couple days of me time and giving myself some much needed TLC, doing nothing ir having to worry about doing anything is must the way to get back and feel ready to go. But back to the grind started Insanity today and its gonna be a butt kicker, given it my all and then some. Gitta Get It Just Gotta Get It. Back on the grind tomorrow, kicking it wit Tip Toe she is a funny kid.

What A Day

A day that I didn't feel like doing anything I have been out all day. Driving all day every car but mine or my moms. When the time comes to drive my car its gonna feel weird especially after driving the van for the next 2 days riding high up. I drive anything and everything oh the joy maybe I will be driven tomorrow, oh that would be nice.

Highlight Of My Day

Leaving the mall in Strongsville heading back to the grandparents waiting to get onto the highway. Had a guy try a unique way of merging. "Hey can I get in front of you." Made my day by far with 3 hours of sleep and up early to b a chauffeur then out n about all day even though I dead tired. Now the 'Late Nite - Barry White's voice' is underway and been going since 4. N too top it off my niece been on one all day and she is in the zone.

Down Time

What to do what to do, no work til Tuesday. Finally some done time but will it be down time since it seems like I always have to be something. We will see I am going to try to do not a thang that is productive for the the next couple days.

Agony Of Computer Hardware

What is the point of making a 3 output video card if only 2 of the outputs work simultaneously. I know why to drive the computer repair and IT support individuals bat shit crazy. which is were i am headed. Racking my brain for hours on end trying to figure out the issue to only find out it is not supported with 3 monitors at once. Now i have to find another way to get the issue fix and the computer to run 3 monitors.

Salvaging a Wet Gaget

This happens more often than victims would like to see it. Have you or someone you know dropped your cellphone, ipod, gaming device, etc in some form of water. Well if you have all hope might not be lost. I suggest taking the device apart removing the battery, video cards, etc and letting the device completely dry itself out. You can also place the device in a bag of rice once you have it taken apart. These are a few free remedies that I have know to work. Just make sure you leave the device apart to allow for all areas to dry for at least 24 hours I would suggest.

For those that would prefer to buy something instead of using these home remedies, try the Bheestie bag it promises to dry it out. It has a reasonable price as well only $20 which is far better than getting a replacement phone or gadget with the insurance you might have purchased when you got the device.

Pains Of IT Repair

I always seem to find a way to cut my hand while working inside a computer replacing a video card cleaning out the fans. Whatever it is I seem to end up with at least 1 cut on my hand. How do they happen I have no idea. Sure would be nice to know how I do this. The mystery of how I hurt myself continues. Finding the but hours later too also perplexes me.

IT Support

In the field of IT support you never know what you will run into on a daily basis. Everday is different and challenging in its own way on way or the other. Today has been a great day in the week where I'm tryna get 5 work days worth of stuff done n 5. So this means that something catastrophic is going to happen to change my plans and make my partial week even crazier oh what run. Have been going non stop all day n the computer screens are runnin together along with the words on them. Tomorrow looks like more of the same. Yeah for me. Have my fingers crossed that nothing unexpected happens but n the IT realm that is a good dream rather than reality.

Switching Phone Brands - What To Know

How likely are you just to switch Cell phone brands (apple iphone, android, windows phone, blackberry) just because your friends have a new phone model. Are you part of the fad that has to have the latest technology with phones even if that means you don't truely understand or know how to use the phone and get it just because it is shiny and new on the market. Just to have bragging rights with your associates about the new phone you have just went out and purchased. Do you do research on a phone before you purchase it or do you just go out there and get a phone because it is new and it seems like everyone else has it. I myself am a technology junkie but I do my research before I go out and buy any new technology gadget, to make sure I am getting the right phone for my needs despite what all the latest rave is on certain products. I happen to be the go to person for my close group of friends and family when someone is in need of some technical expertise or just some information on what is out there before they go and hear all the big words from the sales person trying to sell them something they don't want or need or even really understand due to some big words and catchy sayings that have convinced them that they need this phone. Just some things to think about before you make a rash decision and get stuck with something you don't need or really understand all the things it can do. Just do your research ask someone that you know understands the terminology and knows what the phone or gadget can do and possibly help you before you make a decision that you can not change and get stuck in a situation that you do not like.

Windows 7 Re-Upgrade of XP Downgrade & Back

The fun of going through the downgrade process from Windows 7 to Windows XP. There are some things you should take into account. Make sure that all programs function in XP which they should but you always want to be sure. Driver compatibility, nothing worse than doing the downgrade and losing a driver that you have to get back to make the system completely funcitonal. Once you get the downgrade complete make sure you have a XP disc to use and a valid product key which you will need to start and finish the downgrade process. This is not a hard process to do just takes some time, so make sure you have the time to be without a working computer until the process is finished. This could take several hours to complete. I suggest doing the task towards the end of the business day and overnite so you will only be without a computer for a couple hours rather than possibly a whole business day and be behind on your work for the day.
　

To re-upgrade the system to Windows 7 you will need a Windows 7 disc or ISO file that you have burned to a disc to start the process of making your computer back to Windows 7 OS. This process takes a little bit of time as well but it is very straight forward in regards to following the prompts on the screen. Also the cool thing about when upgrading back to Windows 7 the users files are saved in a 'Windows.old' folder so you can copy all the files back for the user after the upgrade is complete. You will however have to reinstall the programs the users needs to function throughout the workday or just to have a fully functional computer.